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Patricia by ChristopherStevens Patricia by ChristopherStevens
On June 13th, my mom Patricia Ann Stevens lost her battle with cancer at the age of 61. Its had a profound effect on me already. We were as close as a mom and son can be I think. Always have been. She wasn't just a wonderful mother..she was my most trusted friend. I don't know if I'll ever fully believe that she's gone. It's been devastating. I spent almost every waking moment of her last month in the hospital with her. It's a terrible thing to watch someone you love so much slowly die. It's a helpless feeling. When she finally did pass, it was something I hated to hear and something I was relieved to hear. Her struggle was over at last. Now, I'm just trying to pick up the pieces. It's been as difficult to do as I imagined it would be. The last thing on my mind is my work these days. As much as I want to create, my hearts just not in it yet. I require peace of mind when I create and my mind hasnt had any peace in months now. This is the only thing I've managed to do so far. I did it for her, so I hope she likes it.

Please forgive the tone of this. It's an honest note on how I'm feeling and what I felt while working on this piece. I hope I can be back to doing what I love soon and have new stuff to share eventually. It will just take some time.

Oils on masonite
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aureolin-swatch Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2015  Professional Traditional Artist
this is so sad and beautiful - your work is just breathtaking and it is inspiring how you have used your gift to process your pain - thank you for sharing this intensely personal piece of work
Wren12 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2014  Student Artist
i'm very sorry for your loss 
Anothen Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is so awesome...I've had this pic as my desktop for months now, figure I'd at least leave a comment letting you how awesome it is...its pretty awesome
AVastExistence Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is absolutely gorgeous.  I'm so sorry to hear about your mother's passing.  I can only guess at the grief and sense of loss that accompanies such a tragedy, and I wouldn't wish even my incomplete idea of such a feeling on anyone.  Obviously I didn't know your mother, but I can't imagine any person that wouldn't be deeply touched by being represented so beautifully.  I truly hope this past year has been one of healing.  Obviously you're still creating and I am among many that are thankful for that. 
ChristopherStevens Featured By Owner Jun 14, 2014
I appreciate that. Thank you.
AVastExistence Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You bet.  Stay strong brother.
Michael-Ellis Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2014  Professional Traditional Artist
This is a beautiful piece and a wonderful tribute to your mother. Sorry for your loss.
Rugely Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014  Professional General Artist
It is stunning! We extend our deepest condolences on your loss, and highest regard for your work as one of the most amazing artists we have encountered.
warvair Featured By Owner Dec 28, 2013
kgreene Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2013
Hang in there. Chris. I know how difficult it is. But eventually, as time goes by, the world seems just a little bit brighter. Love this piece and your note.
Artmonger1 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2013
so sorry for your loss bro!
SeanMallonWriting Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I just happen to see this piece on a random search and I think it's amazing that you and your mom had such a relationship. Even through the hard, and sometimes impossible times. it seems to me that you guys were growing closer and closer. You are the best Chris.

From the Mallon family, may god bless you and yours.
JETurner Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Is there a print of this piece.
MikeKretz Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2013
I am sorry to hear of your loss. I am sure that she loves this wonderful painting. It is such a warm and beautiful image. I feel for your final time with your mother. I understand what you have been going through. I have been living in the hospital with my son for the past 4 + months while he tries to hang on long enough to receive a new heart. We have almost lost him twice now, and the road gets harder each day. It's hard to think about other things in your life but your peace will return in time. It has to right. Painting pieces like this is a good start. Paint what is inside you when you can and things will find their way.
joeyretro Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
mvitacca Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013  Professional General Artist
It's terrible when somebody so close dies. My father dies 3 years ago and I'm still struggling... I spend almost a year not knowing what to do... and still today when I think in that time Istill got this feelings of anger, frustration, and sadness...

Big hug man...

INKIST Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013
Not sure how I missed this before, but my condolences on losing your Mom to cancer.  It's how I lost my Dad 5 years ago and I know a little bit about how hard it is.  Time passed helps ease the pain for those of us left behind, but only a little.  Hope things get better for you moving forward Chris.  God bless.

SEVANS73 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

The twisting limbs look great, and the colours are beautiful.

Great image.


Cancer is a nasty illness.

PM-Graphix Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
this is an absolutely beautiful piece and after reading your description the mood and feeling are bang on . it feels like a true sunset on a stark and hostile terrain
Jovan-Ukropina Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2013  Professional Artisan Crafter
NathanChristopher Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013
WOW! Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles 
NicChapuis Featured By Owner Sep 4, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
My condolences for your loss.
But the piece is absolutly beautiful.
I am sure she would have loved it.
Thank you for sharing.
ZEBES Featured By Owner Sep 2, 2013  Hobbyist
I am lucky enough to have a cancer-survivor mom, but I _sort_ of understand what you went through during that time when you don't know if she's going to make it. Stupid disease has taken away some relatives from me, too... so when I saw this, at first I though "what a beautiful painting" but after reading your story, I felt even more moved by it. You did an AMAZING job here, it clearly shows how much you care for her. Be strong and keep up the awesome work, my friend.
Hazelgee Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is a truly beautiful piece, lost for words reading the description. Hope you are doing as okay as possible, sympathies to you and your family <3
JennyCreech Featured By Owner Aug 30, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
My dad passed the second of May this year after having been diagnosed two months earlier with adenocarcinoma, that we thought was stage 1, but was actually stage 4. All the best medicine, and all the best doctors, in the world just can't save everybody everytime, and it's especially hard when that person they can't save is your loved one. Months later, and I'm still fighting the urge to call him on his cell phone, or text him pictures of what I'm working on, but it's getting...easier to bear. It's a process, that's for sure. But once you realize that you're capable of living again, fully, life gets a little less dark. I promise.
jikanganai Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
This is pretty awesome it shows how much passion was put into this pic , great work
unveilpure Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2013
nice tonesss man!

dusty-abell Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013   Filmographer
I'm so sorry to have just read this news Chris, my heart goes out to you. The sentiment in your message is so touching, my deepest condolences to you and your family, be well..............
Susi-THzombie Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This looks absolutely wonderful. 
WadeSchultz Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013
It's a beautiful piece. I'm sure your mother loves it. Keep strong and God bless going through the healing process.
comichustler Featured By Owner Aug 18, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
its a beautiful piece and I'm sure she would/does like it. art from the heart takes time and effort to create and you're right, you have to be in the right place to do it. sorry for your loss man. thank you for sharing your artwork with us.
WhiteWolffie Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013
My condolences. :(
norsepearl Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Having worked with cancer patients before back when I worked in palliative care, I know it's a horrible way to die. And it's not easy to handle losing somebody so close to you. I hope she got the help she needed and had as much comfort, physical and psychological that they could give her. My condolences to you and the rest of those who have suffered because of her passing.

The art is lovely with much feeling in it.
zsian Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013
My sincerest sympathies and condolences. This is a beautiful and touching piece. So grateful that you have the courage and grace to share this with us.
feliu Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Professional General Artist
you are in my thoughts and my prayers....this is a  beautiful and heartfull piece!!!!
McHuggins Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
Hey bro, I also lost my girlfriend and mother of my child to cancer on April 20th this year. You're so right about how painful it is to watch someone you love pass so slowly without being to do anything to help him/her. My deepest condolences go out to you and your family. Stay strong man, your artwork is truly amazing!
Delithicious Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
People often find it odd that I have such a good relationship with my parents.  I've met a few people who do and I always seem to connect well with them.

I've been watching you awhile and this is my first comment, a bit belated because what I noticed was your thank-you journal post.  But I just wanted to say that I am touched by your words and your work. I cannot imagine how you must feel after losing your mother as I cannot begin to describe how I would feel if I lost mine. 

- Sierra
klydekiss Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013   Digital Artist
Wow stunning~ 
khumbirafoxhound Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013
Simplemente genial!!!
Kevin-Sharpe Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013  Professional Artist  sorry to hear that. I lost mine a couple years ago and it devastated me. I dont know how I didnt hear about you an what least in the Deviations. 

My very best to you and your family and condolences. 

Stay well buddy and find your way back to better days. 
desycat Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2013
i realy love it! 
Roguehill Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
It's beautiful, Chris.
DrawMonkey Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013  Professional Filmographer
It looks amazing.

Happy thoughts during your hard times.
mijka Featured By Owner Jul 29, 2013
I must say I actually added this to my favorites before I read the post. Hadn't even seen the title, though I'd read the relevant journal.

It's nice that it's both sentimentally touching as much so as impressive in terms of rendition.

Also, obviously, all my condolences.
raptured1 Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013
Chris, I can only imagine what you are going through, I am so sorry for the loss of your mom. Try to remember all the love she gave you all the many yers and pass her love onto others, that is the legacy of those that mean the most to us. I think the piece of art you did for her is beautiful. Stay strong, my thoughts and prayers go out to you.

Rich Cirillo
ElainePerna Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family have my deepest condolences.
Tigerhawk01 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013  Professional Filmographer
I know the feeling all to well, I lost a loved one only a few weeks after your mother. I've been meaning to make a tribute for her but I still haven't been able to, I've made art but its almost been to hard to think about to even begin it. My loved one went through the same issue with cancer so trust me I get it and I am truly sorry. The only way I've been able to make new art is because its what she would have wanted me to do and even though its been hard its the best way I can honor her. I can imagine creating this was both painful and soothing in a way. It's cliche' but just have to take it one step at a time man, one step at a time.
deanviant Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013
Sorry, to hear of your loss, we will ppray for you and yours, peace.
mcguan Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013
Beautiful piece, beautiful note, beautiful memories. Wishing you the best.
Core-Point Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2013
Well you should be at piece now other than legal issue you have to deal with. Because she's not suffering anymore.

I lost my mom to lung cancer.. But we didn't have the same relationship you did, was a rocky relationship. I was glad when she passed on because I knew she wasn't suffering anymore. That chemo therapy tears people up.
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